Today I woke up feeling lonely in every aspect. I feel alone. I feel broken. 

It's been a sickful (if that's even a term hahaha) year-ender for me, all throughout December I'd been suffering from my on - off flu that is why I haven't post anything.

But first let me greet everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

In my previous blogsite I've done this 2017 goals that I will looked back supposedly at the end of the year but since I deleted it I don't have any reference now hahaha but I do believe I've somehow tick some of my 2017 goals like my 1st out of the country trip and learn how to drive that is all I can remember so far. By doing this I can know if I'm becoming a better version of myself.

This year I wanted some realistic goals so no jumping into cliff or doing a skydiving I'll reserve that for a lifetime goals *wink*

Here are my Goals:

1. Learn atleast one new language. I'm always fascinated with other language such as french, mandarin and spanish since 2014, I even considered on enrolling myself to a school just to achieve this goal, hopefully this year I can do it now.
2.  2 out of the country trips. I'm a wanderer soul and my 1st out of the country went well so I want to challenge myself today.
3. Save money. 5000 per month in my savings account and I'll do invisible 100 php and put it in my piggy bank everyday. Hopefully at the end of year I'll have enough funds for travel.
4. Be Punctual. I don't know what happened to me but I was never been late in any of my appointment when I was a student. But when I got jobs me being late was my worst enemy. It came to the point that the only thing they can blame me is for being late but my work flow was excellent, no more late for 2018.
5. Read atleast 5 books. 2017 was been a busy year for me hopping from 3 jobs within one year was not easy, I came to a point where I always brought books and put it in my shelves and I didn't touch it. Books are meant to be red, so this year is the time.
6. 1000 subscribers in my YOUTUBE channel. This will motivate me on producing a better content and to update regularly. So far my Dear Maje channel has 101 subbies.
7. Have a 2nd degree or Do finish my Masters. Never stop learning was one of my motto in life therefore let's make my life miserable I guess hahahaha.
8. Be more organize. My life need some organization skills, I will track down all my expenses and be more responsible on things.
9. Go to church on Sunday. Last year I can't remember I went to church maybe that is the reason why I'm in bad shape but this year I will come back and praise my God.
10. Get Fit. 2017 was totally a wake up call for me to get fit, dresses are no longer fitting me so this time no more excuses. 

Hopefully I can achieve atleast half  of my goals this year, let's all see if I'll reach it by the end of the year. I'll make another update on this by that time happens.

Bathingsuit: Hapeejonee on Instagram Sunglass: Sunnies studios

It was raining cats and dogs on our last day, I woke up around 6am ( yes ang lakas maka-tita's of manila ) with a cold room and a bit of thunderstorm, although I know there will be a scattered rain for that day my mind was at peace thinking it will stop later since it was too early I went back to snuggle my froggy.

But around 10:30 am it was still raining, this time I was skeptical on everything, I keep on checking my weather update if the sun will shine today. I was also praying that time to let us enjoy our last day.

11:00 am, we decided to go forth and let's continue the adventure whether it rains or not. But as we leave our hotel room the raining subside from wet to dry drizzle which was totally ok for us who do not have an umbrella. Good thing our hotel is near at MRT station, we run as fast as we can and headed to SENTOSA which was sunny thank goodness.



If you are looking for a photo of extreme rides as much as I want to take my camera with me, cameras are not allowed when you are trying their slides due to safety reasons, you can bring the camera but you will leave it once you hopped in the floating device and the person-in-charge are not liable if you loss your camera. I decided to put my camera down, locked it in my locker and enjoy this once in a lifetime experience.


After that we went back to our hotel and pack our bags, we still have time for our last minute shopping for pasalubongs and such. By the time you are reading this we already went back home. Thank you so much for stopping by until next travel blog.

Knife. Blade. Rope
"It's not painful, do it" my mind said.

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"Everything is gonna be alright, do it" my heart said.

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I'm sad, no scratch that I'm beyond sad. Depress I guess?

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I feel shallow,  I feel empty.

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I was laughing but underneath that is me, screaming for help.

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I talked to people but none of them cared. Everybody has own burden to carry and mine was needed to carried alone.

Knife. Blade. Rope

And it all ended here-

i. Learn to say NO. I had to realized it late that not every opportunity needs to be taken specially if you are not comfortable doing it nor you are not happy. No I can't do this. No, I don't like. No, I don't need to explain why I'm saying No to you.

ii. People will throw shade on you. You cannot please everybody indeed but never let these people define or affect who you really are.

iii. Never settle for less. I know it was scary but trust me you can do it.

iv. Not everything you love will love you back, *hello crush life* I know it sucks but that doesn't mean that you are not lovable it only means that God is still preparing something better, you just have to wait.

v. Leave the past behind. Do not let the pain and hurt to take over. Never allow the demons of yesterday to destroy the beauty you have today. Never close your door because you've been broken before instead use that as your motivation.

vi. Avoid toxic people. If you are in a relationship or friendship and you find yourself spending more time on crying out of sadness or arguing with them, leave them. Toxic people are dangerous look for someone who will laugh out loud with you.

vii. Love yourself. That is so important. Love your birthmark, the shape of your face, the color of your skin, the nose that you think is flat. Learn to love yourself at 3AM when all you can think is scary monsters hiding underneath your bed or at 7AM when you wake up cranky. Learn to love yourself because you are you and you will never change.